The first part has to be the best compliment I've ever received in my life, it's something I dreamed about hearing I swear :') 💜 so thank you for that.
I feel like I mostly am in a "rush" to find someone not because I want to be loved unconditionally, although I do, but mostly because I just want someone on whom I can pour all this love that's making me burst at the seams almost all the time, and it always feels like something adjacent to worship, kind of like that feeling on intense joy you feel while being in nature or while I listen to music because it feels like I'm truly touching the work of God (and I am arent I) in such an intimate way.
I had never heard of that hadith, I'm definitely saving it, I love just how human the man's behaviour is, almost a childlike innocence In his curiosity fascination and desire for heaven.
This was hauntingly beautiful and truly had me catching my breath by the last few lines. An ode to the romantic who knows their yearning is in vain but clutches at the remnants of their love regardless. This is my favorite thing I’ve read all week.
Peak romantic sufi vibes right there. You sure you didn't time travel from ibn Arabi/attar/rumi or them folks' time period to modern day?? Cuz that longing be deeply etched into your soul.
Poor man's got his work cut out for him haha. But I think I can relate a bit. At times I have these urges to be lost in some foreign land, along in the night, away from anyone who knows me and who loves me. It's a yearning to feel longing. To feel loving grief perhaps as you very poetically describe in this post. Poest it should be called lol, it's pretty much a poem.
It seems you are the lover type, the one who chases, the one who gives. There can never be equals in a relationship. There is always the lover and the beloved, and the lover rides the rollercoaster of emotion. The lover simply loves more. The amplitude of what they feel is a lot more than what the beloved feels, though neither position is better than the other.
I think what I really like about this piece, esp the last paragraph, is how it almost feels like worship, but no matter the intensity of love for the person, it's still all done in the greater act of love for God.
I also find it amusing how this longing is a greedy one almost. You don't actually want to suffer, but you want the highs of grief that may come from suffering. It reminds me of the hadith about the last man to enter heaven and how he asks God to just bring him further away from hell, then to a tree, then to another tree, and again and again until he can see the people of heaven and what they enjoy. Everytime he asks God, he promjses he will never ask again, and Allah swt asks him (roughly) "you said you wouldnt ask me again last time. Do you promise not to ask Me again of I grant your wish." And the man promises everytime, and keeps breaking his prmoise, until he finally asks God to enter him into paradise and He does.
Your hope for a griefy love without any real hurt or suffering sounds quite like that to me lol. May Allah swt grant you more than what you had hoped for.
The first part has to be the best compliment I've ever received in my life, it's something I dreamed about hearing I swear :') 💜 so thank you for that.
I feel like I mostly am in a "rush" to find someone not because I want to be loved unconditionally, although I do, but mostly because I just want someone on whom I can pour all this love that's making me burst at the seams almost all the time, and it always feels like something adjacent to worship, kind of like that feeling on intense joy you feel while being in nature or while I listen to music because it feels like I'm truly touching the work of God (and I am arent I) in such an intimate way.
I had never heard of that hadith, I'm definitely saving it, I love just how human the man's behaviour is, almost a childlike innocence In his curiosity fascination and desire for heaven.
Thank you for the lovely dua, ameen 🙏💜
Well put, there's a need to give love as much as there is to want love.
Indeed
this was so enchantingly beautiful i want each word ingrained into my head
Stop I'll blush:') 💜 thank you for reading I'm glad you enjoyed it 💜
This was hauntingly beautiful and truly had me catching my breath by the last few lines. An ode to the romantic who knows their yearning is in vain but clutches at the remnants of their love regardless. This is my favorite thing I’ve read all week.
Oh my God this is so very kind of you thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it💜💜💜
girl, same.
😭😭
This read felt like an epiphany. I have no words to offer, I can't express how I feel but I cried reading it. Thank you for voicing this.
OH MY GOD NO WAY 😭😭😭💜💜💜 stop this made my entire week 💜💜 thank you so much I'm glad you liked it my love 💜
Peak romantic sufi vibes right there. You sure you didn't time travel from ibn Arabi/attar/rumi or them folks' time period to modern day?? Cuz that longing be deeply etched into your soul.
Poor man's got his work cut out for him haha. But I think I can relate a bit. At times I have these urges to be lost in some foreign land, along in the night, away from anyone who knows me and who loves me. It's a yearning to feel longing. To feel loving grief perhaps as you very poetically describe in this post. Poest it should be called lol, it's pretty much a poem.
It seems you are the lover type, the one who chases, the one who gives. There can never be equals in a relationship. There is always the lover and the beloved, and the lover rides the rollercoaster of emotion. The lover simply loves more. The amplitude of what they feel is a lot more than what the beloved feels, though neither position is better than the other.
I think what I really like about this piece, esp the last paragraph, is how it almost feels like worship, but no matter the intensity of love for the person, it's still all done in the greater act of love for God.
I also find it amusing how this longing is a greedy one almost. You don't actually want to suffer, but you want the highs of grief that may come from suffering. It reminds me of the hadith about the last man to enter heaven and how he asks God to just bring him further away from hell, then to a tree, then to another tree, and again and again until he can see the people of heaven and what they enjoy. Everytime he asks God, he promjses he will never ask again, and Allah swt asks him (roughly) "you said you wouldnt ask me again last time. Do you promise not to ask Me again of I grant your wish." And the man promises everytime, and keeps breaking his prmoise, until he finally asks God to enter him into paradise and He does.
Your hope for a griefy love without any real hurt or suffering sounds quite like that to me lol. May Allah swt grant you more than what you had hoped for.